New Year’s Reflections

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New Year’s Day: A Day for Reflection

New Year’s Day has come and gone. I stopped long ago making New Year’s resolutions. I found that I was never good at making them a reality.

I always failed at any resolution I set before me which often included my smoking habit.

This fact does not necessarily bother me at all. When I realized that reflection is something you do on a daily, weekly, and yearly basis, New Year’s Day lost its appeal to me.

Sure New Year’s Eve is festive and lends excuse for hedonistic tendencies, but I grew up quickly in this regard. Reflection here often brings embarrassment and remorse as I recount the foolishness I embraced.

I found it better to focus on the finer details of my life concerning the good, the bad, and the ugly to be far more arresting.

New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day became a days for reflection. For example, there is a news magazine show called Sunday Morning that of course follows on every Sunday.  During this time of year, this program reflects back on the closing year. It reflects on the good and bad in politics, people (particularly those who died but not limited to), society, and the world in general.

It is a well thought out and executed rendition of reflection.

There is something that is sobering about the day that I am unable to deny.New Year’s Day became a day that only reminds me that I and the world are older and yet unlike the world, have been drawn a bit closer to my own demise.

This most certainly creates a problem.

If I am not willing to participate in such hedonistic pursuits which is often the case with celebrating New Year’s Day, does this mean that I’m just old and close minded? Is there a way for me to enjoy the holiday as it is commonly celebrated and yet remain conservative in my approach to the reflection that I think is important to do?

I realize I’m getting older additional question about that. But I guess the question that I struggle with is that am I too old to have fun?  What would I look like a drunk fool nearly 50 years old on New Year’s Eve hooting and hollering foolish things?

If I’m honest with myself the thought of it is enticing. Maybe I will consider celebrating New Year’s Eve in some hedonistic manner as I turn 50 years old as a way to celebrate having lived half a century!

Until then, however, I suppose that I will remain conservatively in a reflective state of mind concerning New Year’s celebrations!